Saturday, May 31, 2008

Change is good...

As I received information from old co-workers regarding some of the decisions my last project is now making (which I would have been going nuts over), I received a "good job" email from not only my new boss but one of the more difficult individuals on my new team. I can safely say...this was a great week! My decision to switch jobs was a good one. My sanity is returning. My hours are more normal. I enjoy my job again!

The introductions are still not easy. Pretty much everyone has changed the topic shortly after any reference to Connor. But I'm actually ok with that...because it is difficult and at least they are not ignoring me and walking away. The bad part is that I think I still find that until someone connects (talks) with me regarding Connor, then I don't really feel the need to invest in much more that standard hellos...which I know is completely the opposite direction of making someone comfortable enough to talk to me. I guess the being burned by so many people has definitely impacted me even more than I care to admit.

On the parenting front...

Sean's night time routine is not working. He actually starts to get more wind up as it progresses from bath to teeth brushing to story time. We have tied so many different things. Each one works for about a week and then we're back to square one. We have ZERO problems putting him down for a nap and anyone else has ZERO problems putting him to bed at night. So I totally know it's a game that he's playing. I just can't figure out how to stop it. Especially without waking his sister that is in the next room. I get so angry and then I end up feeling even worse because at least he's breathing so why should I care if he doesn't want to go to bed immediately. Then I get annoyed because I just want five minutes to myself and then I feel guilty because I don't want to be with him every second of the day. Aside from this issue, everything else is great. He's seriously a very well behaved adorable three year old!

Keira is doing well also. I am finding myself getting a little anxious about her thumb sucking. Neither of my kids (well living ones) took to a pacifier. Keira started on her thumb at about 6 months. For the most part it's only right as she is getting tired and going to sleep but she will do it when she is really upset too. I would have preferred the pacifier...I can take that away...I can't take her thumb away. I guess I should look up when thumb suckign becomes bad for their teeth. Why is that we keep having teeth problems!