Sunday, December 16, 2007

Happy Birthday Keira

Keira is one year old today. We had a little party all planned for her and I sit here now crying because I cancelled it due to snow. People were coming from all over the State and they just couldn't travel.

There were still a few people over and she did get to eat her first cupcake but it wasn't the same. I know I shouldn't be this upset but I am. I feel like she got robbed. I feel like this is going to happen to her often with this birthday.

I can't seem to put my thoughts together as to why I'm so upset. I'm sure it has to deal with the idea of a BIRTHday verus an anniversary of death. I'm sure it has to deal with making sure my subsequent children get the attention they deserve. I'm sure it has to do with her just turning one. I'm sure that it has to do with the few times I can feel somewhat like a normal mom, it seems to go to crap.

Happy Birthday Keira and it looks like Mommy will be making it up to you for years to come...I hope.